A few know, a few don't

so more and more often I'm tired. not just "I didn't sleep well / had a hard day at work and now have 4 hours of homework to do still" kind of tired either. more like if I don't eat every 2 hrs. I usually get shaky, my speech slurs and I have trouble remembering basic things I was told 2 seconds ago. ("you wanted that cash back... how?...again?? ....oh right right right...)
so this past Thursday I went to a doctor for professional advice. (more on that below)

I've spoken to a few of you about it but for a long long time I've mainly just kept it to myself. growing up I slept A LOT, and still do (sometimes upwards of 10+ hrs, with the most at 14; I know the 'more you sleep the more unhealthy it is' but I was just so tired.) Anyway, there were many times as a youth / Teen that I'd go to work with Dad or with other family to a construction Job site and have little more than Mcdonald's or a few honey-buns for breakfast and in a relatively short time I'd be dead tired! (30 minutes maybe?) - never you mind the lack of nutritional this or wholesome foods that, it's what we did. (either you remember what it was like, or it never happened to ya.) nevertheless, I couldn't last on it although the rest of the construction crew seemed just fine till lunch.

Whatever. I didnt think too much about my 'exhaustion' until the first summer we moved down here to Mesa. we had just moved to the apartments, and had little food in the house to eat that day so I skipped it altogether. Dad's construction site required Joe to weld up a large metal gate on the outer opening of the courtyard wall and he needed both my Dad and I to steady the gate while the hinges were welding in place. long story short we were both holding it steady when I got REALLY shaky, locked my arms + legs, and passed out; I have no memory of falling to hit the gate, so I don't think that's what cold cocked me, although I'm sure that's what they thought. I suspected it had to do with not eating, but then again "it's like that for everyone (who work without food)" ~$*#@&%

recently, ... I got married. My lovely and helpful wife has noticed on several occasions of me acting strange, asking 'if I'm ok', or what have you. (many times I had a thumping headache and I noticed it I would eat something a few minutes later everything seemed to stabilize and my moodiness would shift.);

figured I was on to something. a little online research, a few more friendly discussions later with others who have similar issues, and I have a pretty good assumption of what's going on.

well, last Wednesday night I kind of had a breakdown, leaving me mildly confused sitting on the kitchen floor. (not too dramatic, it's not nearly as bad as what you just pictured, I just had a throbbing headache and couldn't connect ingredients together well enough to make myself something simple like a sandwich or whatever; I just started scrounging through and eating raw ingredients like cheese, sandwich meat, fruit, etc.). I got better a little while later and had a long discussion with Staci about how I was feeling and have felt in the past.

keeping in mind that "assumptions" do nothing to help you fix whatever 'problems' you may or may not have, Staci and I agreed that I'd go see a doctor. Thursday she helped make an appointment and I went to spill my guts about everything that is going on, and everything that had been going on. they connected the dots the same as I did, but said they couldn't make any type of official diagnosis until they got a blood sample on an empty stomach (too bad I ate just before the appointment / I get EXTREMELY light headed when I give blood and as a result don't like to).

early next week I plan to go through with it anyway and have them (hopefully) once and for all tell me if there's anything wrong with me or if I just need to watch my diet a bit more and cut back on the sugar! hopefully I'll get some answers - or at least some validity to what I think I may have. I don't dare say anything, in case it's all a hoax. we'll wait and see I guess.

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(P.S. Sorry for the long post and grammatical issues, they've all been jigsaw puzzle pieces that I am beginning to piece together. if anyone has something similar they've experienced / witnessed I'd love to hear. especially from members of the immediate family!)

the FaceBook Phenomenon

so who's had this happen.... you briefly meet someone, or work 1 hour or less on a group project, or even just make eye contact with someone in a hallway, and later on they want to 'Friend' you on Facebook or some other social networking site?
as you might have guessed, it's happened to me. several times. people that I know absolutely nothing about (or in some cases I wish I knew even less about them) are 'friending' me on Facebook. what has caused the utter destruction of society that allows relative strangers to 'friend' you in cyberspace, when beyond the internet community you've never had a real conversation? or what if you do happen to know them quite well, and would rather not associate anymore, now or ever. What are the rules on social etiquette then? what if I don't want to be friends with someone I truthfully don't like? is there now no alternative to get away?
Any thoughts?

Back to normal

y'know, I've been wondering when life will be getting 'back to normal'. at this point, what is normal anyway? as any newlywed can attest, when you get married ya fall off the face of the planet. not that you left willingly mind you, but rather that you were ejected from it like some irate sports player who isn't playing the game correctly anymore. the spotlight dims from you among most of your single friends as they continue on is search of their one true love. 'hanging out' with them is incredibly foreign, while yet there's a strange familiarity with it. and married life, well hey it takes some getting used to, but in a good way.
for those of you curious, I got my stitches out of my finger. at least in some small way life can get back to normal. typing 10-key all day with your right hand ring finger bandaged is fairly difficult after all.
and as soon as I get my talk for church done and over with I can relax. then life will get back to normal.